Pain - Self inflicted

Is all that I have built for four years precariously balanced on the head of a pin? Can I hope to move it onto a flat and level place without it all tumbling to pieces?

And in the process of moving it off the head of that proverbial pin, I can't help but hurt people that have been closest to my heart.

Should I have ever built this life on that pin, or should I have ruthlessly bulldozed it all down several years ago, and now be two years into the re-building process?